just let me go
i'll fly away
never to be seen by the light of day
you don't have to scream
don't have to shout
stop throwing these things about
yes i love you
you know i do
i understand that you can't love me too
i can't stop crying
of course i'm trying
do you think i WANT to be like this?!
please,help me forget that kiss
i just want somebody
to love me for me
don't touch me!
i get it
you don't give a shit
well..give me my bag
and gimmie a drag
i'm outa here and i hope you know
i won't shed a single
fucking
tear
can't breathe
broke
can't see
glass
get crunk
drunk
bye bye pain
this is so lame
he won't look
nothing to see
i'm not here
he's not here either
he left
no it was over
best frind gone
she doesn't care
stolen from me
kill
dead is good
why do i care?
no more pain
oh right
lets go
pain
i know
br0kenm
I don't miss you
don't miss your smile
don't daydream of my day on the isle
I don't miss you
don't miss your love
don't miss giving my 'tackle' hug
I don't miss you
don't miss your eyes
whispers and the shouts of lies
I don't miss you
don't want your touch
seeing you around is almost too much
I don't miss you
you chased my fears
kissed my lips;caught my tears
I won't miss you
through these years
I can't miss you
lest my heart breaks again
I'll always miss you
here I go again
"I...I'm not scared of you."Bella mutters unconvincingly.
Edward smile knowingly nodding his head slightly."You REALLY shouldn't have said that!"
Said he with a hysteric laugh.He hunched his shoulders down into a "scary" crouch (which was really like a teddy bear pouting).
Bella looks at him with an accusatory glare."You.Wouldn't.Dare."
Then as an after thought she mutters "bitch".
Edward heard her.
He grins menacingly (which is more like a grimace)and before Bella could say "Supercallafragalisticexpiallydocious!" Eddie had her pinned to the couch where her shirt had ridden up her belly to show off her jelly rolls.
Edward surpressed an
She's not welcome.
They don't want her around.
She was -no- Is disposable.
Only needs to be around when THEY feel like it.
She's a freak
She knows this
She's useless
She knows this too.
And all in all
She is nothing
They all treat her as nothing.
So it must be true.
She's not attractive
(Not in the least)
She's not a 'lady'
She is nothing
And she accepts this
But it still hurts to be alone.
I need help.
Please,somebody.
Will anyone stop to help me?
You're going too fast!
Please,slow down!
Help!Pick me up off the ground!
The cuts?Yea they hurt.
Don't walk away!
Please just try,just for today.
I don't want to cry.
Or be alone.
Please!You can be the Pumba to my Timone!
I know you don't care.
Or even like me.
But please,just help me get free.
I'm tired of games.
I'm tired of names.
Please let me sleep.
And Please
Please
Please!!
Just...Help me.
Dear Whoever...
You don't know me.I probably don't even know you.But this needs to be said.I'm not sure exactly how it all began.The cutting or the drugs.Or even the crying.All I know is that It doesn't stop.None of it.The pain.The fear.All of it,it stays as my anger increases.Anger at my family.Anger at my "friends".Anger at you.As you can see,there is plenty of anger to go around.Enough for everybody,and then some.But it doesn't really matter.Nothing ever does.Life sucks.End of story right?We're just supposed to make it through,get a good job,maybe throw in a spouse a few kids and then BAM....youre dead.Doomed to repeat this scary thing we
you can put me down
one more time
i'll stay on the ground
one more time
i'll cry and not be proud
one more time
i won't fight with the crowd
one more time
i'll make the cut
many more times
it feels so good
one more time
i'll dream of slitting your throat
one more time
the gun will feel cold in my hand
One Last Time
Darkness.
It consumes me.
I can't breathe,speak...nothing.
Everything is gone.
Except the pain.
The pain,like always,is there.
The pain,like always,is blissful.
They say I'm sick.
They say I'm crazy.
They're right.
I can't remember the last day I loved,and acctually meant it.
I do,although, know that I love the pain.
I need it.
Its almost like a drug.
The darkness covers me like a blanket.
I can't scream anymore.
If I do,my lungs would surely burst
A smile.
A laugh.
Best friends.
A secret.
A lie.
Best friends.
New girl.
New friends.
Backstabs that never end.
Betrayal.
Liar.
Alone.
Best friends.
"Annoying"
"Stupid"
Best friends.
Best friends aren't really friends at all.
Just a nicer way of backstabing you.
just let me go
i'll fly away
never to be seen by the light of day
you don't have to scream
don't have to shout
stop throwing these things about
yes i love you
you know i do
i understand that you can't love me too
i can't stop crying
of course i'm trying
do you think i WANT to be like this?!
please,help me forget that kiss
i just want somebody
to love me for me
don't touch me!
i get it
you don't give a shit
well..give me my bag
and gimmie a drag
i'm outa here and i hope you know
i won't shed a single
fucking
tear
can't breathe
broke
can't see
glass
get crunk
drunk
bye bye pain
this is so lame
he won't look
nothing to see
i'm not here
he's not here either
he left
no it was over
best frind gone
she doesn't care
stolen from me
kill
dead is good
why do i care?
no more pain
oh right
lets go
pain
i know
br0kenm
I don't miss you
don't miss your smile
don't daydream of my day on the isle
I don't miss you
don't miss your love
don't miss giving my 'tackle' hug
I don't miss you
don't miss your eyes
whispers and the shouts of lies
I don't miss you
don't want your touch
seeing you around is almost too much
I don't miss you
you chased my fears
kissed my lips;caught my tears
I won't miss you
through these years
I can't miss you
lest my heart breaks again
I'll always miss you
here I go again
"I...I'm not scared of you."Bella mutters unconvincingly.
Edward smile knowingly nodding his head slightly."You REALLY shouldn't have said that!"
Said he with a hysteric laugh.He hunched his shoulders down into a "scary" crouch (which was really like a teddy bear pouting).
Bella looks at him with an accusatory glare."You.Wouldn't.Dare."
Then as an after thought she mutters "bitch".
Edward heard her.
He grins menacingly (which is more like a grimace)and before Bella could say "Supercallafragalisticexpiallydocious!" Eddie had her pinned to the couch where her shirt had ridden up her belly to show off her jelly rolls.
Edward surpressed an
She's not welcome.
They don't want her around.
She was -no- Is disposable.
Only needs to be around when THEY feel like it.
She's a freak
She knows this
She's useless
She knows this too.
And all in all
She is nothing
They all treat her as nothing.
So it must be true.
She's not attractive
(Not in the least)
She's not a 'lady'
She is nothing
And she accepts this
But it still hurts to be alone.
I need help.
Please,somebody.
Will anyone stop to help me?
You're going too fast!
Please,slow down!
Help!Pick me up off the ground!
The cuts?Yea they hurt.
Don't walk away!
Please just try,just for today.
I don't want to cry.
Or be alone.
Please!You can be the Pumba to my Timone!
I know you don't care.
Or even like me.
But please,just help me get free.
I'm tired of games.
I'm tired of names.
Please let me sleep.
And Please
Please
Please!!
Just...Help me.
Dear Whoever...
You don't know me.I probably don't even know you.But this needs to be said.I'm not sure exactly how it all began.The cutting or the drugs.Or even the crying.All I know is that It doesn't stop.None of it.The pain.The fear.All of it,it stays as my anger increases.Anger at my family.Anger at my "friends".Anger at you.As you can see,there is plenty of anger to go around.Enough for everybody,and then some.But it doesn't really matter.Nothing ever does.Life sucks.End of story right?We're just supposed to make it through,get a good job,maybe throw in a spouse a few kids and then BAM....youre dead.Doomed to repeat this scary thing we
you can put me down
one more time
i'll stay on the ground
one more time
i'll cry and not be proud
one more time
i won't fight with the crowd
one more time
i'll make the cut
many more times
it feels so good
one more time
i'll dream of slitting your throat
one more time
the gun will feel cold in my hand
One Last Time
Darkness.
It consumes me.
I can't breathe,speak...nothing.
Everything is gone.
Except the pain.
The pain,like always,is there.
The pain,like always,is blissful.
They say I'm sick.
They say I'm crazy.
They're right.
I can't remember the last day I loved,and acctually meant it.
I do,although, know that I love the pain.
I need it.
Its almost like a drug.
The darkness covers me like a blanket.
I can't scream anymore.
If I do,my lungs would surely burst
A smile.
A laugh.
Best friends.
A secret.
A lie.
Best friends.
New girl.
New friends.
Backstabs that never end.
Betrayal.
Liar.
Alone.
Best friends.
"Annoying"
"Stupid"
Best friends.
Best friends aren't really friends at all.
Just a nicer way of backstabing you.
just let me go
i'll fly away
never to be seen by the light of day
you don't have to scream
don't have to shout
stop throwing these things about
yes i love you
you know i do
i understand that you can't love me too
i can't stop crying
of course i'm trying
do you think i WANT to be like this?!
please,help me forget that kiss
i just want somebody
to love me for me
don't touch me!
i get it
you don't give a shit
well..give me my bag
and gimmie a drag
i'm outa here and i hope you know
i won't shed a single
fucking
tear
Current Residence:A small house like room Favourite genre of music: Rock,Metal Favourite style of art: B&W Photography MP3 player of choice: any that has good music Shell of choice: Sea Wallpaper of choice: Dark Colurs On Da Walls Skin of choice: uhhh Favourite cartoon character: Taz Personal Quote: Love IS a spendored thing,too bad its NOT REAL
Favourite Visual Artist
alotta people on dA :D
Favourite Movies
Queen Of The Damned;Lost Boys;Labrinyth;The Brotherhood
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Sid Vicious,KmK,ICP,Mcr,Garbage,Paramore,FlyLeaf,Marilyn Manson
Favourite Writers
edgar allen poe
Favourite Games
Life...OUR lives...not the one that you have a map for
Tools of the Trade
pencil camera notebook
Other Interests
Books..Sharp objects (KIDDING!)-shifty eyes-Writing..Boys..Girls...Having fun :D
It has been six months,six days and 7 1/2 hours since I have last graced dA with my presence.Wow,how egotistical of me.Lol.Jk.But dA has changed...alot.So has everyone I guess.I miss all of my old friends on here.It acctually seems as if I've barely talked to anyone in a while.I feel sorta cut off.And not to mention I haven't wrote anything in about 2 months.Big bad case of writers block.But life could always get worse.....right?!?!?!?!lol.I've mellowed out slightly and I'm acctually getting good grades.But enough about me....what about all of my old buddies?How is everyone?!I miss you all!
I forgot my other password and junk and I really wanna be on here moar so Im starting to come on whenever I can!YAY!-happy dances accross the room and into a wall- Maybe I should chill on the happy factor.Anyways!Whats new?Anything interesting going on with anyone?I'm open to talk!About anything.I missed this.Just being on dA.-happy sigh- Well,LATERSSSSSSSSSSS. <3